somewhere in between

So I'm sad to realize that I haven't posted anything since NOVEMBER 4 and it's now December 26. I knew that I was having an issue trying to find something I was interested in writing about, but almost two months is just insane. I fail as an inspiring journalist sometimes.

To recap the last couple of weeks: Obama won. I was a little nervous as I was watching the coverage but he came through in the end. It was pretty exciting to be able to watch my cousin, who's a graduate student at Columbia J-School, broadcast live from Virginia. Between her and my friend from Simmons who's there too, I wonder if I should have considered J-School as an option. But, I don't think I'm as passionate about journalism, especially broadcast, as they are. I think for right now, I made the right decision to not go directly into graduate school. Eventually, I'll get there, but for now, I can deal with where I am.

Otherwise, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Good or bad, I don't think it matters. But, it has definitely affected my sleeping habits, which are getting progressively worst. I got a total of 3 hours of sleep last night, finally falling asleep sometime after 5 am - to be fair, I wasn't out, I actually decided to go to bed at 11:30 since I felt 'tired' but then I just was laying in bed watching the clock move along while I couldn't fall asleep.

But, I do realize I have some great ideas during that time between 3 am and 5 am when I'm wide awake. I contradict myself every year when I claim that I am actually going to follow my resolutions, but this year, I'm going to make them realistic so I will actually follow them, and start to feel better about the person I've become.

Here are just a few that I've come up with and I will update with more as they come to me:
- Write more. It can be about anything. Once a week would be great, but once a month is required.
- Get into a gym schedule and follow it. No excuses. I need to be able to run a mini-marathon with mom next September for breast cancer. It affects too many of us not to.
- Be more spontanious. Book a trip to LA and actually go!
- Be a better friend. Stop hurting those around me. Listen more. Offer advice.
- Think before I act. Do not let the alcohol do the thinking for me.
- Show Ariel around Boston before she leaves for college. Maybe leave out all the places I drank when I was underage, but show her the T, and the other COF schools, and Starbucks. Remember how it felt to be a scared freshman living in the city.
- Make healthier food choices. Listen to mom. Go back to how I ate when I was cooking for myself.
- Take more pictures. Good ones, not just party ones. Slides, black and white, color. Doesn't matter. Enjoy it like I used to.
- Get more work clothes. Warm, comfy and cute. Learn from Laura and Tara, who have amazing tastes!
- Do something for myself and no one else. It can be anything, but be selfish about it.
- Find time to get back into a pool. Ignore the pain that will come with it. Enjoy the memories that it brings/the amazing muscles that will come back, eventually.
- Find more time to read. Catch up on all those books you've been meaning to read but forgot about.


This is just the beginning. 2009 is going to be a great year, I know.