i never can keep up

I'm leaving for Florida with Laura on Tuesday and I'm pretty excited. I definitely need a vacation considering the last time I went away was last May/June when we went to Jamaica.

It's surprising how much has changed since then. I'm definitely a different person since then, and not simply because I have a full-time job now. Granted, a lot hasn't changed either, and that is what bothers me more than anything else.

I'm still reliant on other people; I want to know when that point came in my life, because I don't remember it happening at all. I always thought I was the independent one, who could handle whatever life through at me by myself. Maybe life is just more complicated now and I just wish I had someone to lean on when I needed them.

I think I just need a confidence booster...maybe someday...