anything to avoid this paper

So I'm suppose to be writing my 2nd graduate paper for this marketing MBA class and I am looking for each and every excuse to avoid it. I just finished one last Friday and turned it in, and come to find out I was suppose to have this one done for class on Monday. But, I didn't know (and neither did 75% of my class) so it wasn't done. I only have until Friday to finish it and I am completely freaking out.

I spent this whole morning stressed. I spent a good chunk of this morning trying to find information on the case study online...I'm pretty sure I checked every resource I could through the Brandeis network. But, nothing. Great way to start my morning.

Then I got to thinking about my interactions with people lately and I realized I'm disappointed in myself. Yes, I have got better than just a few months ago, but some of my same tendencies are there. I've already burned a few bridges with my actions/words recently and I need to start trying to be the best person possible.

But, I have been having some great chats with my bfgff lately. That's best fucking guy friend forever, as he likes to call himself. For some reason, Chris and I have managed to hold together this friendship over the past almost 9 years (wow, that's longer than I thought!) even though we've never lived in the same state and have only really hung out in person 5 times. Before, he lived in NJ and I was in MA. Now, I'm still in MA but he's over in China for a year teaching English. Yet, we have the same great conversations we've been having for years and whether or not he knows it, I really value our talks. He is one of the few people who I can talk to about ANYTHING. I have never lied to him about anything and I know he's been honest with me too. Even though he offers some strange advice/commentary about my situtations, I know he will at least listen to me go on and on about some silly issue and never judge me for it.

I also realized during these conversations how much I am envious of his life right now. I wish I had the opportunity/guts to just get up and go overseas for a year, without knowing anyone, to teach foreign kids English. I think it's a great experience and I'm really happy that he's doing it. Plus, it gives me an excuse to go travel to China and visit, which I am planning on doing next fall as long as all the logistics work themselves out.

Well that, and a possible trip to Hawaii next winter. How amazing would it to be spending a week in China the last week of September/first week in October, then be spending a week in January on a beach in Hawaii. I can almost feel the sun on my face, with a frozen drink in my hand on the beach now...