what i accomplish at work..

This was from the other day when I was stuck working an event that I never got around to posting online...

I'm currently sitting in doing technology help for one of our conferences and I got to thinking (hard to imagine, I know) - did I imagine this is where I would be a year ago, four years ago, ever?

If you had told me I'd eventually be helping run an Israel Cleantech Conference, I probably would have laughed at you. When I started looking into higher education, I only pictured myself at Simmons. I still often wonder why I'm not there - but that's a whole different story - since I miss everything about it all the time. But, on the other hand, Brandeis has been a great working experience.

I can honestly say I love my job - it's different every day and I've started to feel at home here. I love the people I work with, i love the work i do *minus the stupid tasks our communications guy gives me for no reason*. I've also realized how much I missed being around guys on a daily basis. I feel like I can relate to them a lot, which probably has something to do with me growing up with mostly guy friends - and I'm glad to be starting those friendships.

But, I often wonder if the people I work with have a fake sense about who I really am, especially since I'm always "happy" at work and I always have great stories to tell about drinking and bad decision making.

Speaking on that note, I've been trying to decide if I'm actually happy with who I've become lately. I feel like I've been very selfish- putting myself first, which is a new concept to me - I've always thought what would be best for others before considering myself. And I actually like it. But at the end of the day, I am wondering it's right. Am I building these new friendships based on something that isn't true? I just wish I had the answers and could just be told whether or not it's all worth it.

It other less serious news, I bought a new car!It's wicked adorable and very "me" as everyone has told me. I love driving it and can't wait to take it on a road trip somewhere. I've started to get antsy and want to plan a trip somewhere...either TRIP '09, or just a small one before that. The crappy weather lately hasn't helped...if anything it's made me want to get on a plane and fly somewhere warm and not come back until summer.

until next time.